This is one of my favorite renditions of the Queen of Wands done by Ciro Marchetti, who has done the Gilded Tarot and Tarot of Dreams. He also did the poster for the Readers Studio which, in a few weeks, you will be able to check out in my office at home after I purchase one at the Readers Studio directly from Ciro. Im totally jazzed about seeing his artwork and meeting him - Im a huge fan!! And if I am really lucky, I will also be in possession of his tarot deck Tarot of Dreams as well in 2 weeks! =)))
My reading this week:
1. What I have: 9 of Wands reversed.
2. What I need to know: Queen of Wands reversed.
3. Outcome: 10 of Cups
Not all that much different from last week with the exception of my current situation, last week it was the Knight of Pentacles, this week it is 9 of Wands.. im guessing I have made some progress! So does this 9 mean I have gone from the standstill contemplation of that Knight onto rushing forward.. through the war.. looking much currently like one bashed by my wands? Maybe..
So I am in the process of dealing with many personal demons that have been sitting in the shadows until recently. I can definitely see myself as that guy just doing my best to fight through it. I am definitely battling through not just my health, but my fear of health care - i still have a few obstacles to go, the worst of them, as a matter of fact. I have an ultrasound in 2 days which I am soooo not looking forward to and also the dreaded mammogram which has yet to be scheduled. There was another test that I was to have, but woke up and decided that was just a little too overboard even for this upside down Queen. So I got through my blood test part today, or actually one of the bigger blood tests needed. I have more next week too. But now I just have to get through Thursday and I think i will be able to see myself on the other side.
So I am definitely out of my comfort zone here.. my left arm has a HUGE bruise from this morning. Im facing this ultrasound this week that is being done quite contrarily to my preference, but I am going to do this I have decided, in spite of my reluctance. This, i feel i can do, as opposed to that other nasty test I do not think i can do. It will, however, probably turn me waaaay on top of my head just with the anxiety alone.
But - the outcome is still the same - the treasured 10 of Cups. Which is my goal.
I am definitely seeing a pattern with this weekly reading, which has really been fantastic.
I just ordered yet another book needed for my weekly class of Initiation, Western Magical whatever.. great class! Im totally loving the class, its fascinating. Ive started doing the banishing pentagram ritual before reading now, which is kinda kewl. Not sure if I am doing it right, but i feel more energized surprisingly now that i have been doing this ritual daily or almost daily. Of course, we have gotten into the meat of the course where we are discussing the pentagram in regard to each element, and my eyes are starting to cross with it all, but I will spend the week doing my best.
So now each week I have a BOTA lession and a Magical initiation lesson.. and Tarot. =)
Ive also been having more people requesting readings from me, which has been neat. Im not sure how to work that out though. I mean, i hate the idea of charging my friends or even acquaintances, but at the same time, I do recognize that I need to have some sort of trade so I dont get drained and tired, which does happen to me. The people asking are in our witch's group, so I thought maybe if we had it as a meetup where others can read for me too, then we would kind of have a win-win thing.
But it is most interesting that the goal I set when starting BOTA study is slowly but surely starting to materialize.. and this is very exciting but also amazing to watch. And feel and experience!
