Before getting into my usual ramblings here, I want to wish all my Jewish friends reading a happy and healthy new year!
My new year is not off to the greatest start, I must admit, which has me totally depressed, and what do I do when im depressed without answers, thats right - i read tarot! LOL
Im working with a new spread shared by Art Rosengarten, who, btw, is absolutely kewl and has an awesome yahoo group called Tarotpsych. If you are into tarot and psychology, or even just tarot, definitely check it out.. lots of really brilliant and insightful people in this group posting away and sharing sooo many great insights and pearles of wisdom, ive totally learned so much just in the past few months since joining.
So Blysse comes home from school with 4 other friends, 2 girls and 2 guys, one of them being her boyfriend. They had all planned to spend the new year with us. We had a great holiday dinner which was really fun. However, we then all spent the balance of the weekend watching Blysse and her bf be attached at various parts of themselves, which was thoroughly nauseating and very uncomfortable for the rest of us. And no matter what I said to Blysse, alone or with her bf, she would nod her head and then go back to assume an attached appendage position. Urrgh. I finally got so sick of the 2 of them I took them back to school early, as i was sooo tired of playing warden. Literally, the first night Eric and I were up til 2 am as every time we turned around, they were lip-locked on the couch. Now, it hasnt been that long (ok well maybe it has) so we understood this, and we finally separated everyone. Fine. Didnt stop them from assuming the attached position the next day.
I could get into more gory details, but i will spare us all.. suffice it to say, i am not a proponent of boarding schools, i think teenagers need more structure than what they offer, and my daughter in particular. Not just cause of the out of control teenage hormone thing.. but its as if the girl has no family or is not part of a family anymore. She hates when i call her.. the whole 9 yards. If she were 18 or 21, it would be bad enough, but at 15 i think its b.s.
So I did a reading today using Art's spread..
1. How things appear: Page of pentacles.
2. What is really going on: 6 of pentacles reversed
3. What needs to come out: The Magician
I did this with the Rider Waite deck and originally referred to Mary Greer's reference of Reversed Cards.. but i have to tell you, i just was not satisfied with this.. didnt make much sense. So I pulled out the computer reference that came with my Tarot of Dreams deck. This reference was done by Lee Bursten, and the more i read and use this reference, the more fantastic I think Lee Bursten is. I love this deck as well, btw, i just have a really hard time shuffling it and never feel like ive completely put my energy into it.
The page of pentacles is this young girl, looking at the world in her hands.. experimenting, trying things out on the material plane. Fascinatingly enough, the page of pentacles has the immature characteristics of the earth signs, including Taurus, virgo and capricorn). Not coincidentally, Blysse is a Taurus. Lee talks about this page learning material reality. Hmmm..
What is really going on, i feel, with the 6 of pentacles reversed is an uneven giving and taking. I totally feel imbalanced by this situation. Lee also mentions that the guy in the card is benevolently giving out money, but in his other hand, the scale is still tipped one way and imbalanced. So while Blysse may be spending time with us here, she is certainly not giving of her time or energy truly. Or while I am giving of my time and energy, there certainly is not much to be receiving at the other end.
Another really interesting thing about this card also is its astrological characteristic of being Moon in Taurus which talks about how we have a "tendency which causes us either to be encouraged or resistant according to our personalities to express maternal, compassionate, protective insticts in a patient and tireless way." hmmm.. this fits.
On the the Kabbalistic Tree of Life, this card falls at Wholeness, which strives to make things whole.
What needs to come out is the magician. Again, i was kind of stumped.. using my tools or having the power to manifest anything I wish just did not seem to fit. BUT - in reading Lee's interpretation, i realize also that the magician is a teacher and guide and mentor and he uses the 4 elements to problem solve. So I think what needs to come out is the teacher and mentor in us and we need to use the 4 elements to work this out.
On the tree of life, this position is the intersection between reason and reality - that which helps us make sense of what we see around us. - this leads us back so beautifully to the page who is trying to do just that.
I love Tarot because inside one card are about 100 layers of information there to be uncovered, its so amazing to me.
The pictures are the oracle cards I drew. I meant to draw 1 and 2 came out.. another fascinating thing. First was conflict - Duh! Heroic - the empowered side of caring energy that seeks justice and equality. This felt like it plugged straight into the 6 of Pentacles for me.
