April

Okay - so its been 2 weeks since Ive blogged..lol.. and with good reason. Last week's reading, i totally did not get and still dont! So it was awfully hard to blog on it. I guess I could have blogged as to why I dont get what the reading was about..

So its a strange thing because in looking at the reading, i guess i could see things that might plug into what it meant, maybe, but is the idea that im supposed to plug what goes on into my readings or am I supposed to be able to plug my readings into what is going on.. i dunno.

So last week's reading was:

1. Temperance reversed.

2. Death.

3. Queen of Wands reversed.

Ok.. so temperance reversed is about imbalance, and possibly having that affect your health. I wasnt really sick, but i can see how i might be a bit imbalanced and not feeling well from it... maybe. Then the Death card - what is that about? Im thinking, maybe its the end of imbalance? The outcome is the Queen of Wands reversed..

So I had a perfectly great week last week.. didnt feel sick or imbalanced, didnt really experience a huge change or ending so far.. My mother got sick and was in the hospital, so then im all freaked out thinking OMG - shes imbalanced and going to die.. (God forbid) but i know better than that.. but still, with every call not hearing she was feeling better, there was this sinking feeling for me.

But I drew another card on the question - is this Death a good thing or a bad thing? I received some reassurance with the 5 of cups reversed.

But I would not describe my outcome as being reversed, if the queen was in fact me. Could have been my mother, i might describe her as a Queen of Wands or an upside down Queen of Wands (sorry mom). But .. i dunno, just didnt feel like it fit..?

Ok - so this week:

1. Knight of Pentacles

2. Queen of Wands reversed

3. 10 of Cups

So something is definitely up with the Queen of Wands cause she is all over my readings these days. Then Im thinking maybe this is all leading up to this appointment i have tomorrow with this specialist. Something Im not looking forward to, 3-hour GYN appointment - ick. I still cannot figure out what in the world we are going to do for 3 hours - not sure I even want to know. I can see myself as the knight of pentacles.. getting myself ready, getting the information together and getting ready to receive information from this doctor. Pentacles with the health and the work it is taking to get myself to go .. dark horse and environment because frankly its not a bright and happy time im planning to have!

And I can see how this might put me a bit upside down.

but the outcome is kinda kewl, especially considering why I am going. So then im thinking of the problem with getting pregnant has been that im kind of imbalanced in a way which is affecting my health and what i want to do.. and seeing a doctor tomorrow for 3 hours might very well lead to a major end of this - and doing what will need to be done will definitely put me upside down (I almost feel sorry for the poor guy tomorrow having to deal with neurotic old me) - I might be able to see last week's reading there..

But that was for last week, not this week..??

Maybe this is all referring to other things Im doing. I signed up for Lon Milo Duquette's Initiation into Western Magick class - its FANTASTIC! Im totally loving it. Check out The Key to Solomon's Key - its great, very interesting (at least so far!).

More later with hopefully some valdiation on this!